The previous entry was posted at 2am when my head was pounding and that's the reason why it's so short. I wanted to put it up before I forgot. There are a lot of things that I want to blog about but because of my delaying, they usually slipped my mind and being replaced by something else which are not important at all to blog about. Eh, why is my English berterabur? Duh.
I am lying if I say I don't wonder (topic at previous post). But then, I didn't say I don't, right? Who doesn't wonder about such things? One even commented that he wonders what would happened if his parents aren't married to one another.
The truth is, I do wonder. What if I married the one whom I went out with for a year and later found out that he's an addict? Or maybe the one that was so possesive he nearly made me a physically abused girl for two years? Those were the reasons why we weren't together for long. But of course, from what I heard, both are now a loving husbands to their wives.
The point is, what if I was patient enough to go through all that with either of them? If I am given a chance to turn back the clock, and change the past, will I do it?
I will definitely take it. I'd love to go back to my younger years when there're lessers things to think about. Lesser bills to pay. Only myself to care about.
But I wouldn't change the past. The past makes me what I am today. Fate brought him and me together. Never in my younger life had I imagined that my husband would be of different race. He was just one of the guys whom I met and had a torch on me (Chedebah!). But he surpassed others. And I never regret for one moment being married to him. Oh yes there are arguments and misunderstandings. Sometimes we even conduct a yelling match. But all those not only make us learn about each other much better, but it also strengthen the relationship. In the end of the day, it's him whom I wanna be with. It's him whom I kiss goodnight. (eh macam lagu Shania Twain) Oh, I have to add this, in case he reads it. Even though sometimes he hurt me and left me crying to my sleep, I've never thought about would I be crying if I married others instead? I'm happy with my life right now. And there's no one in the world can change it, God's willing. (teringat Indecent Proposal, but that's another story :D)
I think this is the most personal entry I've ever done. I should say that this is also a belated 8th year marriage anniversary entry. If there's such a thing. And we are blessed with Diana and Rayyan. What's more can we ask for?
I am lying if I say I don't wonder (topic at previous post). But then, I didn't say I don't, right? Who doesn't wonder about such things? One even commented that he wonders what would happened if his parents aren't married to one another.
The truth is, I do wonder. What if I married the one whom I went out with for a year and later found out that he's an addict? Or maybe the one that was so possesive he nearly made me a physically abused girl for two years? Those were the reasons why we weren't together for long. But of course, from what I heard, both are now a loving husbands to their wives.
The point is, what if I was patient enough to go through all that with either of them? If I am given a chance to turn back the clock, and change the past, will I do it?
I will definitely take it. I'd love to go back to my younger years when there're lessers things to think about. Lesser bills to pay. Only myself to care about.
But I wouldn't change the past. The past makes me what I am today. Fate brought him and me together. Never in my younger life had I imagined that my husband would be of different race. He was just one of the guys whom I met and had a torch on me (Chedebah!). But he surpassed others. And I never regret for one moment being married to him. Oh yes there are arguments and misunderstandings. Sometimes we even conduct a yelling match. But all those not only make us learn about each other much better, but it also strengthen the relationship. In the end of the day, it's him whom I wanna be with. It's him whom I kiss goodnight. (eh macam lagu Shania Twain) Oh, I have to add this, in case he reads it. Even though sometimes he hurt me and left me crying to my sleep, I've never thought about would I be crying if I married others instead? I'm happy with my life right now. And there's no one in the world can change it, God's willing. (teringat Indecent Proposal, but that's another story :D)
I think this is the most personal entry I've ever done. I should say that this is also a belated 8th year marriage anniversary entry. If there's such a thing. And we are blessed with Diana and Rayyan. What's more can we ask for?
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15 Comments:
eh eh pandai die kasi kita nama Jenab plak .. ceh wah Happy anniversilly Nyonya. Da 8 tahun seh .. inilah masanye nak mintak bunga ke .. bling bling ke ... mampus Apek marah aku intigate bini die si Nyonya ni... eh kalau die marah cakap si Joyah suruh ok ...
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shsuya, at Thursday, September 29, 2005
Joyah, Jenab, thank you eh. Dah 8 years. Dah primary 2. Heehee.
I tak mintak apa apa lah from him. Cos me not working and whatever money he has is also my money. Hehee.
And yes, I do tell my daughter stuffs from the past. It'll widen her knowledge. keeheeekeehe.
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Lynn, at Thursday, September 29, 2005
Feeeeeeeeewwwwwwwiiiiiittttt!!!!
Happy 8th wedding anniversary!
I hope mine will be as long and longer as yours! :o)
Bila mahu jumpa dah?
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Kynne, at Thursday, September 29, 2005
Ok ok everyone! Memandangkan betapa popularnya aku (Wahaha), i'm pleased to inform that tomorrow, Friday the 30th September, I'm free for LUNCH!!! Siapa nak date aku??? Cepat!!! Aku suggest pi Lot 1, amacam???
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Lynn, at Thursday, September 29, 2005
Eh, joyah!!! Kau langgar joyah??? Kau kan joyah??? wahahaahah!!! Langgar sendiri, tergolek sendiri! Wahahahaha...
Alaa sayang si kyn ni. Asik tak berkesempatan jer nak meet dia. Pi lah ambik MC :D
Kak Yati ooooh! You commented!!! I is very the happy you know. Thank you. You don't want to date me tomorrow noon?
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Lynn, at Thursday, September 29, 2005
Eh, ko punya entry ni eh, bikin aku rasa bersalah gitu? Kenapa eh? Oh kenapa? hmmmm.......
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Anonymous, at Friday, September 30, 2005
WOIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!
30th September, lunch date... Mana boleh!!! I'm working *wails*. I cannot take MC or apply for any leave because we're swamped with biz and more biz and I'm happy to work because I know I'll be getting a BIG FAT bonus!
Aler.. macam gini... lepas Ramadhan jer eh Kak Lynn?
Uhuk Uhuk....
Kesian me.
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Kynne, at Friday, September 30, 2005
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When all is said and done I still would have picked my nose :p
Kenyataan di atas tidak ada kena-mengena dengan yang hidup, tak hidup mau pun yang stengah tiang. Sekian terimaksih.
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Anonymous, at Friday, September 30, 2005
Apai, kau tak bersalah. Kau telah membantu aku yang sebelum ni masih ada tanda tanya. Sekarang semua dah terjawab. The best has won.
Ah, kyn. Jumpa time raya ajer lah eh. Boleh collection from auntie kyn heehee.
Yati, no worry. Because you tak layan me, i made appt with other peminat. Heehee :p
Dood, apa nak cakap eh? Sott eh? hahaha... Sama sama kasih :p
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Lynn, at Saturday, October 01, 2005
Eh I'm tall lah you're the one whose sot. Wakakaka :p
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Anonymous, at Saturday, October 01, 2005
alamak! dah terlambat...
hapi 8th anniversary to you. ramai betul peminat nak kluar dgn you. =)
wishing you many more years of blessed married life. ni bulan posa dah nak dekat ni... slamat menjalankan ibadah posa ye?
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Lisa, at Sunday, October 02, 2005
yer...
salam anniversary....
so hows d celebration???????
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Geek In Pink, at Sunday, October 02, 2005
alamak! ako lambat....
happy anniversary jenab!
bila nak date i pulak....
ekekekekek
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Aliyah, at Monday, October 03, 2005
lama tak masuk sini...ok hapie belated anni n selamat menjalani ibadah puasa....
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Anonymous, at Wednesday, October 05, 2005
Hi everyone! Thanks for the wishes. Sorry for not updating. I'm going to do it now :D
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Lynn, at Thursday, October 06, 2005
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